August 31, 2009
savoring every moment. <3
August 30, 2009
love letters on wet papers.
1. What time did you get up this morning?
8:30 AM, unintentionally of course!
2. How do you like your steak?
Non-existent, please.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
The Ugly Truth.
4. What is your favorite TV show?
Lately I'm hooked on The View, and Laguna Beach.
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
6. What did you have for breakfast?
I only eat breakfast's on Sundays, which today was two pieces of toast.
7. What is your favorite cuisine?
Lately I've really been into salads of all sorts.
8. What foods do you dislike?
Tomatoes. I can't handle them. Yuck. Other than that I'm pretty easy when it comes to food.
9. Favorite Place to Eat?
Earls, Moxies, and of course, McDonalds.
10. Favorite dressing?
Italian.
11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
A boat. Enough said.
12. What are your favorite clothes?
My jeans from Buffalo, a fancy tanktop, and my cowboy boots. :)
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
Seriously, I'd visit everywhere; Australia, all of Europe, Nashville, New York City, the list goes on and on.
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
Definitely 1/2 full.
15. Where would you want to retire?
16. Favorite time of day?
Morning.
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Soccer.
22. Bird watcher?
Not exactly.
23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Both.
24. Do you have any pets?
Yes, I have a dog. But I'm not at all a "dog person".
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
Yes...I'M MOVING TO BC IN 1 DAY!! :D
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
I looooved animals as a kid, and I wanted to be a zoologist or something of the sort.
27. What is your best childhood memory?
28. Are you a cat or dog person?
Cat.
29. Are you married?
Definitely not.
30. Always wear your seat belt?
Usually, but today I didn't...whoops!
31. Been in a car accident?
Never ever. It's weird, cause I could've been in SO many, but I just seem to get..."lucky", one might say.
32. Any pet peeves?
Liars. Pessimism. Tools.
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
Deluxe; green peppers, mushrooms, you know the deal.
34. Favorite Flower?
I like lilies, tulips, and daisies. Roses are always nice too.
35. Favorite ice cream?
Vanilla with chocolate chips. <3
40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
I actually finished a book! I am thoroughly impressed with myself right now!
41. Like your job?
I do not have a job.
42. Broccoli?
Mmm...delicious! I had some today actually.
43. What was your favorite vacation?
Disneyland.
44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
Kristina and Andre.
45. What are you listening to right now?
Miranda Lambert. She is so right about everything.
46. What is your favorite color?
Reds, purples, pinks, whites, blacks... I love every color.
47. How many tattoos do you have?
None yet, but I'm hoping to get one on my wrist one day soon.
50. Coffee Drinker?
Heck no. Yuck. Haha.
Pack Pack Packing!
Ah yes, the above picture is an image of what my room currently looks like right now, at 12:20 AM.
August 25, 2009
Unexpected.
August 24, 2009
Living.
August 23, 2009
August 21, 2009
Just Thinkin'
I have now come to realize that after your friends throw you a surprise party, you are in total shock for about an entire hour. It’s the weirdest thing. I mean, you’d think that you’d get over the whole surprise part right after everyone has finished screaming and flashing their cameras in your face, but that’s just not the way it works. I sat through that fine dinner with a painted on smile, pinching myself and silently asking, “Am I dreaming? Is this really happening to me? These things never happen to me!” I love my friends, so very much! :)
I could watch the movies, “When Harry Met Sally” and “You’ve Got Mail” over and over again. The reason is most likely because Meg Ryan always has the most incredible chemistry with any male actor out there.
My new favorite pastime? Horsebacking riding, in the rain. <3
Have you ever had a short, casual conversation with someone, then after you’re only left wishing that you could’ve talked more? Wishing you could’ve gotten to know them better? You wanna know those simple, yet life-changing moments; when they had their first kiss, where they went to University, how they earned their money when they were your age, and when they finally fell in love. I’ve been having a lot of these moments lately. Getting to know someone who has many, many, years on you, is like having the privilege of reading a great book, an autobiography. There’s so much wisdom gained and lessons learned behind each word said. And let me tell you, it makes you want to really live, hoping that someday someone will askyou for your autobiography.
Ryan Reynolds is sexy, and I think the following picture says it all:
"Boy in the Striped Pajamas" has to be thee saddest movie of all time. I was left there, alone on my couch, sobbing.
Going clothes shopping with guys is so easy. Anything, and everything looks good on them! I'm jealous.
My favorite thing about a song isn’t the gentle voice behind it, the melodious guitar that makes your heart melt every time, the rhythmic beat keeping the tempo, or the climax after the second chorus…it’s the lyrics. Lyrics are beautiful, vulnerable, and mean so much more than just words. Lyrics are an equalizer in a world that tries too hard to prove that everyone’s different. They’re like a journal entry put to music. They’re the only part of a song that can truly make you feel like you’re not the only person in the world who has ever felt loved, free, ecstatic, broken, angry, scared, faithful, or any other possible state of being. They make you feel not so alone.
I love storm-chasing with my Dad. It really is no wonder where I got my adventurous side from… ;)
These past few weeks I’ve suddenly become hooked on the television show “The View”. There’s just something whimsical about four old women bickering about the latest hot worldly topics on live television.
I love the smell of rain.
How the packing for University going, you may ask? Let's just say I have sheets, scrapbooks made by best friends, pillows, mirrors, mascara wands, full bottles of Herbal Essences Shampoo & Conditioner, picture frames, and electric kettles all piled into one corner of my room. Ah yes, the life of a procrastinator is a good one.
And last but not least, you can never eat too many unbaked cookies. Ever.
August 19, 2009
Expectations.
August 18, 2009
I am comfortable.
You Are An Intro-Extrovert! |
Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy. You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on. You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time. Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need variety! Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along. |
When I read the question, "Are You An Introvert or an Extrovert?" I thought to myself, introvert, hands down! But as I was going through the quiz an answering all of the simple and uncomplicated questions, it definitely got me thinking...I'm not as introverted as I thought I was...
I remember in high school, I absolutely loathed working in groups. I always felt like working with several other people just brought me down, and that none of my ideas would ever be considered because everyone was too focused on socializing rather than simply just getting down to business. If you're a hardcore extrovert reading this, it's probably a difficult thing for you to picture. I mean, YOU try explaining to a hardcore introvert that public speaking is the highest of highs. It's all just unexplainable. Your comfort zone is your comfort zone. It's who you are. It's truly amazing how different the gears can turn in our brains.
About 2 years ago I took my first "Are you an introvert or an extrovert?" quiz on the internet, and I was angry with my result; introvert. I didn't want to be an introvert, because high school had created an introverted person as someone who never talks, always has their hair in their face, whose only hobby is being locked up in their bedroom reading science fiction books day after day, and their only friend is their pet cat named Seymour. In some EXTREMELY RARE cases, this could be true. But I all in all, I didn't want to be associated with a group like that. Because the only way to make it to the next level of the teenage "popularity game", was to be a talker, partier, social butterfly, talker, dare-devil, talker, frequent party host, and oh, did I mention a talker? To be honest, I seem to attract these extroverts. I'm a magnet, and I'm not exactly sure as to why...maybe it's because I love to listen, and I could possibly be the only person who ever truly listens to them. Hmm...
But now, as a grown 18-year-old, I am nothing but ashamed to have ever thought that introverts were somehow lower than everyone else. Now, as a grown 18-year-old I have opened my eyes, become as open-minded as an open-minded woman can be, and have fallen in love with personalities of all types. And now, as a grown eighteen-year-old, I have embraced my introverted qualities, and am somehow balancing it perfectly with my newly gained extroverted qualities. I have never loved myself more than I do right now! I am truly happy.
August 5, 2009
Wake Up and Smell The Break-Up.
And when people would tell me that it’s IMPOSSIBLE to still be friends with your ex, I would also think they were crazy. Who cares if the “relationship” part didn’t work out, you still have your friendship to hold onto. You just have to put the past behind you, and be there for each other like normal friends.
But now, after being lead-on by a guy for six whole months only to be left broken-hearted…I know that all of that isn’t crazy, it’s common sense. After being told me he liked a different girl now, he swore that things between us would never change, and that “having a girlfriend is supposed to be a good thing, and not something that makes you lose friends.” I bought into that, and at the time, I honestly did agree with him. We could still be friends! Why not? Things would turn out just fine…right?
Wrong. I had never felt worse. In fact, I hit an all-time low. I had never felt so used, lead on, or lied to in my whole life. I had never known it was possible to cry so much. I felt like dirt under his shoe. As much as I hated him for everything he ever put me through, I knew that he still had me, and that with one word from his lips, I would forget everything he did and come running back to him. I felt like I would NEVER be able to free myself from him. I felt like I’d be stuck under a rain cloud forever. I’m trying so hard to make this writing do justice to how sick I felt inside, but I just...can’t.
After alot of tears and sleepless nights, something happened. It’s like I had opened my eyes for the very first time, and it all eventually hit me: I’m only 18. I have a life out there waiting for me to live it. I deserve to be treated like a princess. I have friends and family who love me. I am beautiful. I am talented. I have so much to give. I’m going to UNIVERSITY hundreds of miles away! I’m going to see the world. I’m going to live out my dreams. And most importantly, I’m going to love and be loved.
And so what I thought would be impossible to do (move on), was something I DID find myself doing. I deleted him every voicemail message, every MSN conversation, every picture, every song he wrote for me, his facebook, and his phone number. EVERYTHING. I did everything that I had once been so against doing, and erased him from my life.
By pressing the delete button, I was not only respecting myself, but I was loving myself. No one deserves to be stuck in memories that mean absolutely nothing to the other person. The more you live in the past, the more you dig through every little thought and every single word that was ever said, making it actually possible to SOMEHOW blame yourself for something that CLEARLY isn’t your fault. All I know right now is that I didn’t lose, I won. I took his twisted little plan, turned it around on him, and kicked him to the curb. I became the bigger person and took everything back that was taken, and leaving him to wallow in his mistakes. Now he’s the one who can’t let go of me. I guess you don’t know what you have until it’s gone, hey? Ha.
I still don’t know what God had in mind when he let me spend half a year adoring someone who didn’t deserve to be adored. Maybe it’s to show me all of the consequences of ignoring every red flag, and lowering every standard. Maybe it’s to show me that this isn’t what life is about, at all. Maybe it’s about the experience. Maybe half the fun is getting there. And where am I going? I’m on the road to living my life, and believing that one day, I will find my love story.
So here's your one last look at your t-shirt, 'cause I'm keepin' it!