Living.

I was once confronted by one of my best friends. She said:

It's kind of funny how you want to be a writer, and write books one day, when you yourself are NEVER caught reading books. Weird, wouldn't you say?

Yes, I agree, it IS weird that I want to be a writer even though I never read books, and when I do read books, I have an awful habit of never finishing them! For instance, two summers ago I bought the book Twilight, (before there was that huge annoying Hollywood hype about it), and I only got halfway through it, as life's busy schedule got the best of me. Then there's The Other Boleyn Girl...I definitely didn't get to the end of that one... Oh, and I can't forget about Harry Potter, and how I only read 5 out of the 7 books. There's also the Bible. Is it bad that I'm already eighteen years old and I've never read through the whole entire Bible?

Now don't get me wrong, I loved all of these books. Each and everyone one of them is written so well. Twilight, for Bella's intense and captivating thoughts written across every page, The Other Boleyn Girl for making it so easy for your brain to concoct the most beautiful imagery possible, Harry Potter for its suspense that's able to keep you up 'till late hours of the night , and last but not least, the Bible for being the truest of all true stories. Clearly, there should be no reason as to why I haven't finished any of these books. Right?

Wrong. The simple truth is that I'm too busy living! How can you write songs, journals, poetry, articles, and blogs if you have zero life experience? Wouldn't a love story sound like a sham if you've never been in love? Wouldn't a period of grief feel like a desert if you've never had a reason to ever shed a tear? A real, full-fledged backpacking trip through Europe would sound like a cheap Wikipedia article if you've never actually done it yourself!

Even now, being so young, I feel like I've already lived through so much. From the grief and struggles of losing a brother, to every crazy exciting traveling experience, and to meeting so many fascinating people, you could say that I've been riding on this roller coaster of emotions for quite some time now. I can't even imagine how much going to live during my next 18 years of life! Wow...

But right now, feeling like you actually have a purpose and a reason to use your God-given talents, it truly makes you want to wake up in the morning and jump out of bed. Yes, jump out of bed! And when the moon is high in the sky, you're way too excited and anxious to even let your eyelids get heavy, but once they do put on some weight, your sleep is ever so peaceful.

So in conclusion, instead of spending most of my time reading books, I'd rather be out there living life with the hopes that one day, I may be able to create something beautiful with my experiences to change and influence someone's life for the better. Except for tonight... (haha) , since I just got a brand new book that I will finish before the summer's end. This I promise you! :P