Our Engagement Photos.

My fiancé and I got our engagement photos done at the end of February, and our photographer posted a blog entry featuring us! Her name is Leah and she honestly is extremely talented at what she does. Unfortunately--for me--she and her business moved down to South Carolina, so if any of you down south need a GREAT photographer, check out "Photography By Leah". Anyway, you can CLICK HERE to see the photographer's official blog entry of our engagement shoot. :)

Here are some of my favourite shots from the shoot:

Hope you like them! :)
XoXo Jenny

A Good Stress.

Wedding planning,
Maintaining a healthy long distance relationship by saving some face time for FaceTime,
Working 30+ hours a week,
Attending school and labs 15+ hours a week, not to mention the homework/exams/papers on top of that,
Organizing fiance-visa documents & appointments,
Attempting to try at having a social life,
And all of those other little things that like to sneak up on you such as fixing blown car tires...

All. At. The. Same. Time. All. Day. Every. Day. Never. Ever. Ending.

I wouldn't say I'm stressed...

Okay, yes, no, never mind, I would.

Normally my stress comes with a lot of tears and anxiety. I'm happy to say that I am well past that point--I mean, that waaaaaas last week after all, and I don't want to freak anyone out, but I actually had an anxiety attack while I was at school. That was fun. (What?) Of course my nerves planned it out well by timing it right before my baking lab! There is nothing more therapeutic than being in the kitchen baking up a storm, well...besides sleeping, getting massages, drinking white wine (or any shade of wine, really), or crying your eyes out in the car to old Taylor Swift break-up tunes.

But anyway, that was laaaast week (today is Sunday, so, technically that was more like yesterday...). THIS week, despite all of the above tasks, I am happy. Maybe it's because I still have that large 2-cream 1-sugar coffee running through my veins, or because I FINALLY get to sleep in tomorrow (I'm setting the alarm for 2 in the afternoon--try and stop me).

OR, it's because I have a new perspective on these so-called "tasks"...

Wedding planning; it's not everyday you have the opportunity to invite 250 people to a day that is all about YOU. I am honoured to even have that many people I want to celebrate marriage with!
Maintaining a healthy long distance relationship with my fiancé; Hands down, the best part of my day. Especially if we have one of those FaceTimes where we are just laughing the entire time. Sure, nothing at all productive gets done, but it's definitely a nice proverbial vacation from my nutso-life. I am thankful to even have a fiancé in the first place!

Working 30+ hours a week; I look at this and can't even believe I work over 30 hours a week. It literally feels like 10 at the most! I am so thankful for this job, and so thankful that I enjoy it!

Attending school 15+ hours a week; Holy smokes I am in CULINARY school. Sometimes I take it for granted and don't see it to be as "cool" as I once did, (coolinary). I have a little over 2 weeks left of school and I'm actually going to cry when it's all over. I am so thankful for this education!

Organizing fiance-visa documents; Sure, maybe I'm not too thrilled to get a medical examination or the hundreds of dollars that go into filing these visa forms, but hey, I am getting MARRIED, to a guy that I really like!! That makes all of this worth it! Plus, I get to go to Montreal for my visa interview. I definitely see this as my chance to shine as a tourist in Old Montreal City!! And once this whole process is over, I will feel so empowered that I actually did this whole Visa thing on my own, no parents or lawyers required!

Attempting to have a social life; today I literally stood in the kitchen for over 3 hours talking with some of my housemates. I'm thankful I even have people in my life whom I can talk to for 3 hours while STANDING without even noticing that I have been STANDING for over 3 hours. It's nice when being social can come effortless like that. Even at work, work is so social to me, it's like killing 2 birds with one stone: making money, while making friends. :)

Fixing a blown car tire; a) fixing it was 100% free, b) I am thankful that I even OWN a car.

Yes, I'm stressed, but as you can see, it's a good kind of stressed! Things will get done in their own special time (slower than I'd actually prefer), but they will get done. And I bet you that when they are all completed, I'll wish that the time hadn't gone by so fast and that I wasn't so dang bored!

Bedtime, XoXo

Ask For Prayer.

James 5:16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.

James 5:13-14 Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing praise. Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord.

What I am learning is this: there is nothing wrong with asking for prayer. My whole life I had seen asking questions, asking for help, or asking for prayer as a sign of weakness. But God encourages us to ask our fellow believers to pray for us. He loves this. He loves seeing his children spending time with Him in prayer.

I Need You To Love Me.

This song gets me every time, and I'll never understand how God still loves, despite ourselves...

Why, why are You still here with me 
Didn't You see what I've done? 
In my shame I want to run and hide myself 
But it's here I see the truth 
I don't deserve You 

But I need You to love me, and I 
I won't keep my heart from You this time 
And I'll stop this pretending that I can 
Somehow deserve what I already have 
I need You to love me 

I, I have wasted so much time 
Pushing You away from me 
I just never saw how You could cherish me 
'Cause You're a God who has all things 
And still You want me 

Your love makes me forget what I have been 
Your love makes me see who I really am 
Your love makes me forget what I have beem

-Barlow Girl-

30 Fun Facts About Me!

My life has changed incredibly since I started this blog back in my final year of high school (2009--represent!), and I figured since it's a new year (it's year 2014, in case y'all forgot), why not write a list of all these fun changes?

Before we begin, in case you don't know who I am, the below photo is me--right now, as we speak!

1. I am ENGAGED! I should probably write out the proposal story on another blog post, so that my grandchildren's children can read about it one day while cruising around on their hover-boards. But yes, I got engaged August 12th, 2013, which was about five whole months ago! It's crazy to actually be that girl who has to describe the detail of the wedding dress she just bought, or when the date of the wedding is, or what her wedding colours are. I never thought I'd be that girl! It's SO surreal and SO exciting!

2. Wedding planning is not my forte...then again, planning events and parties are not my forte. Planning = stress. I AM the girl who is engaged, but I AM NOT the girl who had her wedding planned since the day she fled the womb. (Can't I just be married to the love of my life and be done with it?)

3. I live in a house with SIX other girls!! Yes, SIX. No, it's not a sorority house (although, we should probably get t-shirts just for fun), it's just a house of seven Christian girls who miraculously came together by the amazingness of God's perfect timing! It's also by God's grace that we all get along; we literally can all sit in the same room and (attempt to) do homework together, or we have spontaneous movie nights!! I'm so thankful to be living in a house with six big golden hearts, and kinda sad that it'll all be over in May when we move out (I mean, when will I ever be living in a house with six other girls ever again? It's a once in a lifetime type of experience!)

4. I am a total girly-girl. My sister loves to state that I'm the easiest person to buy gifts for because I can be pleased with presents from one or all of the following categories: florals, pinks, cats, florals, aaaaand more pinks.

5. I am a culinary student and I LOVE it!

6. I find showering to be a total hassle.

7. One of my favourite things to make at school are soups and stocks, I find they just have an abundance of nutrients and flavours, they are an excellent way to use your total As Purchased Cost of food rather than tossing your trimmings into the garbage, and they're relaxing to make.

8. When somebody opens up to me, that is the moment when I feel loved. It's as if they like me, see me as personable, and trust me enough to share their life with me. It's hard when you have those certain friends who never let you in beyond the surface...

9. I love driving, especially in the summer when I can have my "tunes cranked up and my windows rolled down". I'm pretty sure that line is from every country song ever written...

10. Most of the time, socializing in groups makes me anxious and leaves me exhausted by the end of the day. I am a lover of one-on-one hangouts!

11. At a restaurant I will never order a salad. I simply cannot justify spending so much on a dish that just leaves me hungry by the end of the meal.

12. I am quiet, and my fiance is loud; and I LOVE it! He keeps me so entertained. Ha!

13. I plunged a live lobster head-first into a pot of boiling water just yesterday...it was a total milestone in my life.

14. Although having a car is expensive with paying monthly insurance, paying off the lease, and paying for gas, it is better than not having a car at all. I love my car; I love the freedom and flexibility it provides for me, and I love the places it takes me. :)

15. I am Mennonite; enough said. :)

16. I am very particular about hair-care. In my shower I currently have 8 different bottles of different shampoo and conditioners... is that a little much? XD

17. I don't enjoy small talk, or conversations about pointless things. I like talking about the deep stuff, things that are heart-changing, life-changing, feelings, emotions...things that are important to one another...and significant things occurring in each others lives.

18. I waited until the age of 20 for my first kiss, it was in Germany (!!), and with the man I'm about to marry. That is something rare, and that is something I am very thankful for!

19. I love and totally support the idea of big families (my Dad has 14 siblings, therefore, I have a zillion aunties and uncles and a zillion +1 cousins), BUT...I can't even imagine having more than 4 children myself...Check up on me in twenty years and we'll see...

20. I used to make fun of people who drank Almond Milk and ate all sorts of "weird" raw foods...but now I am one of them. Seriously, bring on the Chia Seeds, and green coffee beans.

21. I am in love with everything about the East Coast; the beaches, the seafood, the boardwalks, and the lighthouses. I would LOVE to take a road trip starting from Maine heading straight south to Georgia. I'm very excited to be moving to the East Coast. :)

22. I refuse to wear Toms. Or Crocs.

23. I probably cry every single day...if not, then every other day. Tears are my stress-relief.

24. My two favourite tv shows: The Bachelor (yes, this is embarrassing...I admit), and Masterchef (I'm proud of this one because Gordon Ramsay is a culinary genius, and it's actually pretty educational, unlike The Bachelor!)

25. In a way, my heart constantly feels torn, because I'm in long-distance relationships with all my closest friends...from BC, Alberta, Saskatchewan, Manitoba, and then there's my Fiance who is in the US of A.

26. I enjoy wine, a lot. Not a lot as in I drink in ridiculously excessive amounts, "a lot" as in: my fancy for wine is vast.

27. I am bummed, because the ONE time that I move to the States on a Visa and won't be able to return to Canada until who knows when, is when over 3 of my close friends are getting married, and I am missing all of their weddings. :'( Also, my best friend is having a baby and I'll be missing its first year of life. Sigh.

28. I have strong feelings against PORN and ABORTION. In case you didn't know, they are very much connected. Many porn-stars have lost count of how many abortions they have had. I hope to blog about these one day so i can elaborate on them more. The fact that these things are becoming "normal" and "tolerated" in our society, is just heart-breaking.

29. I love my parents, and admire them greatly. Having been married over 40 years, they are obviously doing something right.

30. What is something that I want? In all honesty, I want to be less focused on myself, and open my eyes to what is going on around me. I want to stop thinking that I'm the only one with "issues" and "problems", I want to be constantly plagued with the fact that everyone is going through something difficult, and that they need prayer, even if they don't ask for it and even if they don't show a need.

A Short & Sweet Update.

I miss blogging so much. I even have a super long entry saved in my draft...it's been sitting there safely unseen for over two months. It's dying for a good edit.

Two things:
-I'll be back
-God is good. I can't let myself forget that.

<3

Deception & Truth.

I am so frustrated! It is really all starting to sink in that everything in this life and on this earth is totally one big deception!

Every time I watch or read the news I get so aggravated because one site will portray an event THIS way, and another site will portray an event THAT way. Well, which one is the truth then? Everything is so completely twisted. Videography and photography used to be incredibely helpful tools in proving if something is true and if it actually occurred or not. And now that technology has increased vastly, video clips are edited, and photos are "photoshopped". A fertilizer plant blew up in Texas, and somebody decides to slow down a video to show that it was actually a missile which caused the explosion. Really, now? Do we have to put a conspiracy theory to everything? What is truth?

It is so completely annoying having no idea if what I read on the news is true or not. Why do people have to lie? Why does every story have to have two sides to it (two sides which are polar opposite of one another)?

I cry out in frustration: what is truth? Is there anything in this world that is without a hidden agenda? Is there anything in this world that isn't twisting the truth all for the sake of MONEY and POWER?

And suddenly, the answer is clear in my mind. Just as I was about to lose all hope in this life, I realize that I do know what is truth, and I hold it here in my hands: The Bible.

The BIBLE is TRUTH. This world is certainly swimming in its lies, and Satan (the "Father of Lies") is doing his duty all too well, but the Bible still is and will always be God-Breathed and true.

I wish I could leave it at that, I really do, but people who call themselves Christians/Followers of God are taking something true (The Bible) and are totally twisting it into something to suit their lifestyle. Example, "New Age" Christianity is all about the idea that if God is a loving God He wouldn't send anybody to Hell, therefore Hell does not exist. Another example, somebody decided to alter The Bible and call it "The Queen James Bible" to convince Christians that homosexuality is not wrong.

Since when did it become possible to put God in a box and make Him into the God YOU want Him to be? Last I read, in THE BIBLE, God NEVER changes, He is the same yesterday, today and forever. What kind of God would totally change himself in order to fit a persons lifestyle and to help them feel justified of their sins?

Honestly, when I feel like all hope is lost, I feel great comfort in being in a relationship with a God who is the way, the truth and the life. I cannot help but sometimes hold my Bible close to me, and be so thankful to even have such an amazing, comforting, encouraging, TRUTHFUL book to guide me every second of every day.

Matthew 24:
³ As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. “Tell us,” they said, “when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?”

⁴ Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you.
⁵ For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many.
⁶ You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. ⁷ Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places.
⁸ All these are the beginning of birth pains.

⁹ “Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death,and you will be hated by all nations because of me.
¹⁰ At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other,
¹¹ and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people.
¹² Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold,
¹³ but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved.
¹⁴ And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come."

Deep Fried-Faturday.

I have just returned home from a college & career group supper evening of deep-fried goodness. EVERYTHING we ate was deep-friend! (mozza sticks, french fries, pickles, fish, perogies, sweet potato fries, pickles wrapped in bacon, spring rolls, and of course, deep-fried Mars bars!!) So yeah, what better thing is there to do while feeling extremely bloated than fill out a blog questionnaire??

1: The last person you kissed screams they love you, you say... 
I LOVE YOU TOO BABY!!
2: Did you get to sleep in today? 
Oh I only wish! I had to wake up at freakin' 7 AM. (Haha)
3: You never know what you got until you lose it? 
Nah, usually I realize these things firsthand.
4: Do you have siblings? 
I do! I have three, but honestly I wish I had like 10 more. I would love some little sisters!
5: How many kids do you want? 
I want four boys and one girl. Or maybe just boys... :) I totally wanna be a soccer/football mom when I grow up. ;)
6: Who was the last person you held hands with? 
My boyfrieeeeend. (Did I really have to say "boyfriend" like that? Was that really necessary?)
7: Did you stand on your tippy-toes for your last kiss?
Ha ha ha....I don't think I'll ever need to do so...
8: Do you think if you died, the last person you kissed would care? 
Um. YEAH.
9: Last person to talk on the phone? 
My boyfrieeeeeend. :)
10: Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone? 
Probably; it was at the departure terminal at an airport. Even so, I don't blame 'em for watching.
11: When’s your birthday? 
January 9th! 'Tis a good day, despite the fact that it's in the dead of winter.
12: Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? 
March 11th 2011 :) Outside, under the stars, on a bridge, near the forest, in Germany. It was the best first kiss ever! <3
13: What kind of phone do you have? 
Nokia crap-phone. Oops, I mean flip-phone. But hey, the cheap-o phone payments are worth it!
14: Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? 
My Alaska pajama shorts! They have moose on them.
15: Are you a different person now than you were 5 years ago? 
Absolutely! Five years ago I was a little -naive- 17 year old girl. It really is amazing how much you can change and grow in five years! I was also skinnier...
16: What were you doing at 4 am? 
Sleeping! Is that even a question??
17: Would you rather write a paper or give a speech? 
Good question.
18: Are you lying to yourself about something? 

Actually yes..."Don't worry Jennifer, you don't gain weight easily..."

19: Last night you felt…? 

ZONKED.

20: What’s something you cannot wait for? 
May 8th!! After almost 5 months I get to see my boyfriend again for the first time!! Gah!!
21: Ever told your parents you were going somewhere but when somewhere different? 
Whaaa? Haha...what a funny question that is...haha...
22: How many hours of sleep did you get last night? 
Five? Six? Definitely not enough.
23: Are you a morning or night person? 
Nights. Firstly, To be honest, I LOVE working the evening shift, just because it means that I get to wake up in the morning when my body is actually ready to wake up and then I can just relax and slowly ease into my day. It's wonderful. :)
And secondly, I am filling this questionaire out at 1 AM. I'm definitely a night person!
24: What did you get your last bruise from? 
I don't bruise all too easily.
25: Do you reply to all of your texts? 
HA! Nope, I am notoriously horrible at not doing so!
26: Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for. What do you do? 
Um. Freakin' answer it :D
27: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? 
No, as previously stated it 'twas at the Baltimore airport. <3
28: Anyone you would like to get things straight with? 
Not that I know of...but if somebody does come to mind I'll be sure to spill all details on my blog. (pff!)
29: How many months until your birthday? 
Honestly, I'm too lazy to count OR care. I'm turning 23! That's way too crazy for me right now.
30: Favorite thing to eat with peanut butter? 
I'm not really a peanut butter kinda girl. But I do love me some Reese's buttercups.
31: Did you like this past summer? 
Yeah this summer was the best! It consisted of moving into a condo with two awesome girlfriends of mine, working full-time at an Orchard all summer, and watching countless episodes of 24 with my brother and my boyfriend.
32: What were you doing before you got on the computer? 
Watching hockey with a bunch of people, feeling extremely B-L-O-A-T-E-D. Too much deep-fry for one night!
33: Your ex is sitting next to you, with their new partner. What do you do? 
No ex exists!
34: What is the last thing you said out loud? 
Lyrics to a Justin Bieber song. Don't judge...I like to support my fellow Canadians...
35: Your mood summed into one work? 
Seriously quirky.
36: Are you doing anything else besides taking this survey? 
Drinking water with lemon juice. (my new favourite drink!!)
37: What are your initials? 
JF...almost like JF-Kennedy.
38: Are you a happy person? 
I'd say so. I tend to give off that vibe. But sometimes I can be a total train wreck. :S
39: Do you still talk to the person you liked 4 months ago? 
Why yes I do! :)
40: Where do you want to live when your older? 
With my husband in whatever town/state/country God leads us to! (Dear God, that excludes places with the season of winter. Please and thank you!)
41: Have you had your birthday this year? 
I totally did! It was rad.
42: What did you do yesterday? 
Drank some instant coffee (luxurious, I know), gave my two-weeks notice at work, watched some Fireproof, and then returned to work for my closing shift!
43: What will you be doing tomorrow? 
Church in the morning, lunch with my parents & brother, and then supper in the city at Original Joe's with a girlfriend! So excited! Sundays are the best days.
44: How late did you stay up last night? 
1 AM. Too late.
45: Is there anyone you would do anything for? 
I'd like to think so: Jesus.
46: Is it hard to make you laugh? 
Actually....not really. But some people do receive pity laughs from me. Just sayin'.
47: Do you believe ex’s can be just friends? 
Pff not at all. Like show some respect to your current boyfriend/girlfriend and get your past lover out of your life!
48: Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again? 
No exes to worry about!
49: How many people have you had feelings for in the year of 2012? 
One, and he's the best. :)
50: Do you wish your ex was dead? 
Alright, number 1) this is a horrible question, and number 2) enough about the exes!
51: Have you ever dyed your hair? 
Blonde, red, blonde with brunette layers underneath, and light brunette. Blonde definitely wins though.
52: Would ever take back someone that cheated? 
A boyfriend...no, because it's not like you are formally/officially committed to each other yet and are stuck with each other. And come on, if you are cheating on each other while you're only still dating, then obviously you don't even like each other that much.
A husband on the other hand...yes...maybe...perhaps... I would take him back. I would like to think I could be that strong. I mean, when you say your marriage vows to one another you promise to endure and love each other both for better AND for worse. These "for worse" moments definitely INCLUDE when you make really stupid mistakes and when your spouse makes really stupid mistakes, such as cheating.
Love is not a feeling, it's a commitment. It's a commitment to stick it out through better or for worse, because you care about the other person as an individual in Christ who is constantly growing, struggling, and sinning (just like you are!).
Honestly, if God can send His own Son to die on the cross for us to forgive us of our past, present, and future sins, then how would we NOT forgive our own spouse? How could we not show that kind of grace to everyone?
And don't tell me I don't understand or I don't have any clue of what I'm talking about because I'm not married yet. I KNOW how hard it is to forgive and be forgiven--it doesn't start when you are married, it starts the moment you're born.
53: Was New Year’s Even enjoyable? 
New Years was verrrry enjoyable! I was down in Maryland visiting my boyfriend, and I FINALLY got my very first New Years kiss! :) We also then watched The Dark Knight Rises till five in the morning on an 85" TV and ate vodka soaked gummy bears. Mmm!
54: Bet you’re missing someone right now? 
Always am :)
55: How would your parents react if you got a tattoo? 
They'd most likely react the same way they did when I got a nose piercing...that concerned blank stare...
56: Sleep on your back or stomach?
I never sleep on my stomach! That's so bad for your spine!! I always sleep on my side in the fetal position. It's so warm :)
57: If you could move away, no questions asked, where would it be ? 
Somewhere with no winter. Or snow. Hot weather ONLY!
58: What would you change about your life right now? 
Actually I am in the middle of change as we speak. I think a blog post is definitely on the way about this!
59: Has anything upset you in the past week? 
Haha! I'm a female. Of COURSE something is ALWAYS upsetting me.
60: Are you on the phone? 
No...I wish I were though.
61: Today, would you rather go forward a week or back? 
Forward!!!
62: Would you take $40,000 or a brand new car? 
Definitely the cash. I mean, think of all the traveling I could do with that money! :D
63: Have you ever talked to someone when they were high? 
I'm pretty sure I've had some high people come into my workplace. Super awkward.
64: Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone? 
Ha! Of course! I'm such a crier!!
65: Have you ever copied someone elses homework? 
More like, people are always copying MY homework!! Geez!
66: Are you the type of person who liks to be out or at home? 
I'm definitely a pretty good balance. I love being out in the city, shopping, dinner with friends, ect. But to be honest, the scale leans a little more to the being at home side. I love being home. It's so wonderful and relaxing.
67: Do you automatically check your phone when you wake up? 
Yeah I seriously do! I can't even imagine getting out of bed without checking for missed phone calls or texts. That's almost kind of sad...haha!
68: Have you ever stayed up all night on the phone? 
Yep!
69: Could you use some sleep right now? 
Despite the fact that I took a 2 hour nap today...yep!
70: Are you going to have a baby by the time you’re 18? 
I think I'm a little late for that one...even so, I don't want to have ANY babies with my husband for another 6-8 years. But if it happens, it happens.
71: Does it bother you when someone hides things from you? 
YES it really does. It makes me feel like the trust that I have in them is not reciprocated. Which then makes me feel like the friendship is at a serious plateau and has no potential for growth.
72: What’s your favorite color? 
Baby pink. Or Tiffany blue. :)
73: Have you ever slept in the same room with someone you liked? 
Yep! (It's not what it sounds like, trust me)
74: Have you ever been looking for something and it was already in your hand? 
Most likely that's happened with my keys or pen or day planner or something.
75: Do you get annoyed easily? 
Yes and no, it all depends on certain factors I guess.
76: If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you? 
No. The guy better keep his pride intact and not say a word because all he'd be getting is serious rejection. Haha!
77: Do you have a person of the opposite sex that you can tell everything to? 
Yes :) Honestly, I never thought I'd ever find somebody whom I can talk to about ANYTHING with. He knows everything about me, and I know everything about him. That's how dating relationships should be; there never should be anything to hide...except wedding rings and plans for proposals of course :)
78: Does anyone call you babe? 
My boyfriend does!! I LOVE it :) We say it to each other at like the beginning or end of every sentence haha!
79: How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? 
If we are talking fully trust, then definitely my boyfriend and my Dad. Two amazing and definitely trustworthy men.
80: What do you prefer, relationship or one night stand? 
Gee this is a tough one. :P
81: What color hoodie did you wear last? 
My white American Eagle one!
82: Is there someone who meant alot to you at one point, and isn’t around anymore?
Yes there is. In the beginning there was alot of bitterness on my end just because I felt so out of control of the whole thing. But I just needed to accept the fact that people change, and that as a friend, the last thing I should do is keep my friends from becoming who they really truly want to be. Even if I don't agree with what they're doing, I still need to genuinely love them.

Yay!

Sooo00o0o0o0oo... thanks to Kaila's harassment about me not blogging enough, I have decided to write a blog post containing this little nugget of information:

Exciting things are happening in my life!!

To be continued -on-a-day-when-I-am-not-working... ;)

P.s- I want to make a playlist on my iPod of inspirational/motivating/life-is-exciting songs! Any suggestions??

Love & God.

Replace the word LOVE with GOD and you get something so miraculously true:

GOD is patient,

God is kind.

He does not envy,

He does not boast.

He is not rude,

He is not self-seeking.

He is not easily angered.

God keeps no record of wrongs,

God does not delight in evil

but rejoices with the truth.

He always protects,

always trusts,

always hopes,

always perseveres.

God never fails.

All of this 1 Corinthians love stuff is so easy RIGHT NOW while I'm at home alone and cozy on the couch. It's easy to trust and be kind and patient when there's not a soul around to bother you. But I want to be able to remember this stuff and practice this stuff in the moments that really matter, like when I'm interacting with people. When I'm in the fiery heat of the moment with another person and all I can think about is myself and my own feelings. I don't want to be selfish, I want to be an example of ultimate maturity, which is to strive to be like God. Sometimes I'm scared living out the characteristics above will just cause me to be a doormat, but in all actuality it's just taking the high road. Think of how God trusts YOU and is patient with YOU and never keeps any record of wrongs from YOU...I mean, if God can do that with us, then why on earth can't we be the same with our friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, spouse, siblings, parents, ect? Why not?? I believe it's possible, not by our own strength but by God's strength.