Blink.

Last night I went to bed in depressed mood. Thus, making it difficult to fall asleep at a decent hour.
This lethargic and hopeless state of mind carried on through the night and into the morning. The last thing I felt like doing was going to work. I imagined in my mind what it would be like if I skipped work without any notice. I was granted visions of me, a sluggish ten-pounds gained mess, glued to the couch watching no-good-for-you tv shows like Pretty Little Liars and listening to despairingly sad music and eating mountains of artisan-cheese flavoured rice crackers while my boss and fellow co-workers are in an angry frenzy at work.
Yep, this vision did it for me. There was NO way I would EVER even CONSIDER skipping work EVER again. *shudder*
Twenty minutes before I planned to leave for work, I stepped in front of my full-length mirror. Sighhhhhhh. I didn't approve of what I saw staring back at me; my hair pulled back in a messy bun, a blank slate for a face, and dressed dark, as if I were about to attend a funeral. Great. I'm gonna be mistaken for a train-wreck when I get to work. Can't wait!
And then ...I blinked.
Without a thought in the world, I cranked up the bass on my speakers. I tore off my black top and exchanged it for a bright baby pink t-shirt. I buttoned on my American Eagle skinny jeans and smoothed my hair back into a girly high pony tail. I shimmered my cheek bones with bronzer and coated my lashes with dramatizing mascara. I slipped in my favorite pair of dangly earrings and smothered on the lip gloss. Before practically skipping out the door, I gave myself a deadly stare in the mirror. Now, YOU are lookin' good.
It was a weird moment. In the span of one second I went from "I am an ugly old rag." to "I love life!!!!" I always knew I was somethin' short of bi-polar!
I was so proud of myself. This morning I could have chosen to have a lousy day at work. I could have gone to work wearing black and tried to convince the world that I am a big piece of nothing, but instead, I chose to make this day wonderful. And that's exactly how it turned out! Work was great, people were great, and my mind-set was great.
So, here's to my bi-polar tendencies and to having a (hopefully) blissful sleep. :)