Highlight of My Day?

Me: "Mom, you'd better be very specific of which bags go to the thrift store and which bags don't go to the thrift store, because I am known to do some pretty stupid things."
Ten minutes later I back the car out of the garage. I not only miss the pavement and drive onto the lawn, but I drive over two solar lanterns, creating a glass ...EXPLOSION.
Do I really need to say it again? "I am known to do some pretty stupid things."
I once again thank God for blessing me with two patient and very forgiving parents. :)

While I was skyping with a good friend the other day, together we watched a video from the Mars Hill Church titled "Marriage and Men". So if you're a guy wanting some guidance on how to live your life a little better or how to treat your woman a little better, this is a great video for you! (Although, I'm pretty sure I lost all of my male readers after that blog entry I wrote a few days ago) And if you're a single girl like me, this video might help you raise your standards, just a little, in regards to finding a future mate. (it also made me realize how ready I am to NOT get married. Haha!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYBovk6MBEg

If you watch it, then ...great! If you don't...then that's OK too. But don't say I didn't opportune you!
Anyway, Chinese takeout is calling my name. Caio!

What to do...what to do...

To confront or not to confront?

To fake a smile or not to fake a smile?

To persevere or not to persevere?

To care or not to care?

To sit back and watch this childhood dream go up in flames or not to sit back and watch this childhood dream go up in flames?

To pull ones' hair out or not to pull ones' hair out?

To pretend or not to pretend?

To scream in pure frustration or not to scream in pure frustration?

To resign or not to resign?

To believe that yes, this is how friends treat each other or not to believe that yes, this is how friends treat each other?

To continue wasting ones' time or not to continue wasting one's time?

To cry or not to cry? (too late for that one...)

To admit that there's female drama in ones' life or not to admit that there's female drama in ones' life?

I can't believe I'm letting an issue as stupid as this one keep me up way past my 11:30 bedtime. This is ridiculous. Thank goodness for encouraging late-night text messaging; without it, I never would've spotted the slight glimpsing sparkle at the end of this tunnel. Ohhh yes, the day this slow and heavy shuffling train leaves this barren cylinder of a tunnel will be a GOOD day.

I think I just knocked Hamlet and his listening-skull out of the ball park.

Eleven was just a phase.

I'm going through a box of old notes and diaries that were stashed in my closet, and man, I found some of my diary entries from as far back as 1999! Kids say the darndest things!

November 11 '1999
"Today is rememce Day. I feel kind of sad because lot's of people died because they fighted in the war and people steped on land mines."

Dec. 22 '1999
"Hi! You know what! Why would one of my friends like ____!! He isn't a very good kid in school. He teases people. Same with ____! He thinks he is so funny."

'2000
"Hi! It's me again. I have have some news! K**** likes me, I can tell because he is always pushing me and smiling at me. I always say to my frinds that I hate him but I really do like him. I mean, he's funny, he's cool, and all that."

"Do you know what happened once? Well, it was at lunch time at school and K**** was wrighting notes to me saying "you suck" and all that. Then a note said 'you suck' it was on a piece of paper shaped like a heart then I unfolded it. I say 'K****!!' Just when I'm hold up the heart. He says that he never new that was a heart. Bye!"

"Everytime when K**** is on our slides that me and Kayla are on, they push us off and they get the slides. Then we go close to them in the bush so they can see us then I say to my friends 'hey guys! ssssssssssss' then we fake laghfe so that M******'s little brother comes and we push him and he falls on the ground. Ha! Ha! Bye!"

"Hi! know what I really don't like K**** very much. Plus I'm way too young to have a boy. I mean he's cute and all but I just like him a bit."

June 11 '2000
"I need to tell you about todays Passions episode. Well first Tabatha and Timmy were drowning in the ocean because they were having a prom. I don't even know what that means or is! Anyways, there having a prom on a big ship and there was a big storm. And Teresa was having fun with Ethan, Grace fell out of the boat somehow. And Chairoty was killing Megal because Tabatha was controling her. Charioty had red eyes and was choking her boyfriend Megal. We don't really know if Megal died because they end the show at the good parts."

May 22 '2001
"Dear Diary, please keep this a seceret. It's about a dream that I had. It was so cool. I sat and ate lunch with Leonardo DiCaprio!"

June 1 '2001
"...Then we boarded the bus and were on our way back to school. You know what? I prayed to God for a safe trip and I got one! So I thanked him. I guess God really is real. I'm glad I can be in Heaven with him."

July '2001
"Dear Journal, I'm calling you a journal because you are one. Anyways, how's it going?"

May 6 '2002
"Dear Elijah Wood, I'm just praying and praying that I will get to meet you, but somehow there is no hope. But you're just so old, 21, and I'm only 11. How can I ever marry you? It's just really sad for me. You probably like someone else. There are millions of people who love you, but how can I be chosen out of all those people?"

Haha...Don't judge me.

Pissed(at)MenSyndrome

In regards to health and body, this past week has NOT been so swell.

If I created a visual pie chart of my daily events, 3/4 of it would be titled as "EATING". (did I really have to use a pie chart as my example? Really??)

If I had kept all of my receipts from this past week, ALL of them would include the words: chicken snack wrap x30, vanilla milkshake, cookies, cereal, chicken fingers, ice cream, french fries, and sour cream & onion chips. (could I get any healthier?)

If I took a photo of myself at this very moment, I could pass for being 3...No, make that 4 months pregnant --minus the sweet, angelic motherly glow.

I even sent out a text message looking something like this, "HOW COME ALL I EVER WANT TO DO IS EAT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING?!

So, thank you HORMONES for consuming my every thought and action. Thank you for demolishing my every hope and dream of fitting into my bridesmaid dress. See you next month.

And...I think I just lost all of my male readers.

Deutschland! Deutschland!

My flight to Germany is officially booked.

Yes, this is really happening.

Things just got real.

And life is about to get a whole lot crazier, folks.

So watch out land of schokolade, beer, football hooligans... Jenni is about to set up camp.

:D

You are the best thing that's ever been...Mine.

Today Taylor Swift released her new single, called "Mine", and you can only assume that I was ESTATIC at eight in the morning. I just love her. The fact that she writes ALL her songs astounds me; and a song is only as good as its lyrics. Her words are her diary entries, poured straight from her heart. I only wish I could be so vulnerable with my writing. Oh well, I'm gettin' there... slowly. Slowly but surely. Taylor Swift has kept me dancing in my room, playing air guitar, and head-banging in the car since 2006, and all I can say is that I'm going to go absolutely insane when her new album gets released in October!!

You were in college, workin’ part time, waitin’ tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was a flight risk, with a fear of fallin’
Wonderin’ why we bother with love if it never lasts

I say, “Can you believe it?”
As we’re lyin’ on the couch
The moment I could see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now

You remember, we were sittin’ there, by the water
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine

Flash forward and we’re takin’ on the world together
And there’s a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I’m guarded
You say we’ll never make my parents’ mistakes

But we got bills to pay
We got nothin’ figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about

You remember, we were sittin’ there, by the water
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine

And I remember that fight, 2:30 a.m.
You said everything was slippin’ right out of our hands
I ran out cryin’, and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye
‘Cause that’s all I’ve ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said, “I’ll never leave you alone”

You said, “I remember how we felt sittin’ by the water
And every time I look at you, it’s like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man’s careful daughter
She is the best thing that’s ever been mine”

Let the games begin.

I'm stressed out. I can't believe this! Who gets stressed out in the middle of summer? Who can possibly be stressed when the weather is warm, the flowers are flourishing, and the sun is shining?

Me. The answer to that question is me.

It's actually unfathomable how busy the months of August and September are going to be for me, and in case you didn't know, I am the Maid of Honor for a wedding in September, so I'm in the process of planning a few events.

I am a lover of lists. So can I just make a list of things happening from now until September 22? Thanks.

-Folklorama this weekend!

-Shopping for Bachelorette party goods.

-Birthday party!

-Michael Buble concert!!

-Taking one of my best friends out for supper on her birthday.

-Meeting with the Bombers merchandise guy for Labour Day details.

-Bachelorette party!!!! (planned by me)

-Create wedding slideshow.

-My town's fair weekend. (parade, fireworks, BBQ chicken, country music, mmm...)

-One of my best friends' birthday parties on the beach!

-Lingerie Shower (planned by me)

-Spending Labour Day weekend in Regina for the Labour Day Classic. (Go Bombers!!)

-Wedding Rehearsal Dinner

-The day before the wedding day. (this will be an interesting day!)

-Wedding day!!!!

-My sister is coming to visit for a week!

-My last week of work (so bittersweet)

-Packing up my room for moving day.

-Packing for Germany.

-Leaving for Germany.

So as you can see, I'm a busy girl, and it's insane as to how much work I need to take off. And that list isn't even the half of it. Most of my days are spontaneous, so imagine this list times two! I'd say that most of the stress is derived from my best friend's wedding. (planning parties and events has never, ever, been my thing. There's so much work that goes into it.) But I would do anything for that girl. :)

I just gotta remind myself to take it one day at a time and cherish moments like this; the moments I can stop and take a breath.

A New Friend.

So there's been this guy. I met him a few nights ago for the first time. It was an awkward, yet very cute first-meeting; romantic like no other.

So, what's the story? What makes this one so mucher greater than the others? Well...I caught him watching me through my bedroom window.

I was creeped out... majorly, until I saw him rest the palm of his hand against the glass. (It was the cutest sight to see--honestly, one of those straight outta a movie kind of moments)
The gesture was so romantic that I had to take a photo. So right after I snapped the photo, I turned off the lights, and pulled down the blind until just a crack was left for him to watch me crawl into bed and doze off, feeling safe and secure.

Good night, I said, peering up from my pillow.

When I awoke the next morning, he was gone. Even his palm-print disappeared. It was as if he was just a mirage of my imagination. I brushed it off, thinking that yes, all good things must come to an end.

And then, as the sun left the sky and the stars paraded through, as if all of my dreams were finally coming true, there he was! Sitting right exactly where we had met for the very first time. And boy, was he ever cute staring at me with those squinty, yellow and endearing eyes. Yes, I'm quite a sucker for those green-as-grass, slim-covered, chubby lookin' kinda fella's. His mysteriousness actually intrigues me. I mean, to be honest, I'm not even sure if he, is actually ...a he.

Never Truer.

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said 'Journeys end in lovers meeting.' What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had.

I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said 'love is blind'. Now that is something I know to be true.

For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert.

Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back."

-The Holiday

The Breath You Take.

He looks up from second base dad’s up in the stands
He saw the hit, the run, the slide there ain’t no bigger fan
In the parking lot after the game he said
“Dad I thought you had a plane to catch”
He smiled and said “Yeah son I did”

Life’s not the breaths you take
The breathing in and out
That gets you through the day
Ain’t what it’s all about
You just might miss the point
Try’n to win the race
Life’s not the breaths you take
But the moments that take your breath away

Fast forward fifteen years
And a thousand miles away
Boy’s built a life he’s got a wife
And a baby due today
He hears a voice saying “I made it son
He said “I told you dad you didn’t have to come”
He smiles and says ”Yeah I know you did”

Just like it took my breath when she was born
Just like it took my breath away when dad took his last that morn

Life’s not the breaths you take
The breathing in and out
That gets you through the day
Ain’t what it’s all about
You just might miss the point
If ya don’t slow down the pace
Life’s not the breaths you take
But the moments that take your breath away
-George Strait