God is Good, so Good.

Life has been pretty comfortable lately. Thanks to my late 3 AM nights and my on-going Facebook fast, I have been finishing all of my assignments on time, and the stress levels are now currently sitting at a low. I have only a few assignments left before exams roll around next week; one assignment left to do includes watching and comparing Oh Brother Where Art Thou with the Wizard Of Oz. (SWEET!)

Last Sunday was the most beautiful day. It was plus 15 with pure sunshine, so my friends pulled out the blankets and lay out on the grass for over 4 hours. I think I even got some color on me! I forgot how much I missed the sun. The rain is so frequent here that you're so used to running indoors at every opportune moment. The sun reminded me of how excited I am for summer: going for jogs in the blaring heat, laying on the beach, having campfires every evening...

Despite the lovely realization that summer is just around the corner, I really think that these next three weeks are going to be the hardest. I have to say so many goodbyes. I can't even describe how great some of the people here are. They have changed my life completely. It's weird not knowing the next time you're ever going to see some of these faces again; it's numbing. But the beauty of being in a relationship with Christ is having the confidence that we'll all see each other again one day in Heaven. If I keep this fine fact in mind, maybe the depression won't even sink in. Maybe goodbyes are just a part of life. And maybe God's plan is flawless.

So yes, these next few weeks will be trying, but I'm going to soak in every second of it. And the daily Gilmore Girls' marathons with my best friends don't hurt either. :)

Dreams.

I don't like dreams. You know those unpredictable, unstable, and delirious unconscious wishes you experience before you wake up in the morning? Yeah, I don't like those. They mess everything up. I went a good couple of days with only Homework and academic goals on my mind and nothing else, and then all of the sudden I wake up this morning COMPLETELY distracted. Now it's all I can think about.

Dreams are like those annoying voices in your head reminding you of all the things you want but you just can't have; and it takes days to rid that from your mind after.

Really, what's the point of dreaming? I don't need to use them as an escape from my reality. I don't need to constantly be poked and prodded at for what lies deep inside my heart. I would just like to believe that ignorance really is bliss.

Valentine's Day

"if you're ever with a girl that's too good for you, marry her."

I couldn't have said it better, Reed Bennett.

So, this is me in the library, obviously working on my Philosophy homework. ;)

Random Thoughts.

Tonight is a "random thought" kind of night, as is this blog entry...so here goes:

I've come to realize that contexts' can be very powerful. What do I mean by this? Well, if you ever want to get into a super deep conversation with me, just pull me into a hot tub. That's all you gotta do. After spending countless hours in my roommates' hot tub over the past few months, it's just what I've been noticing. A hot tub is like a warm, safe space. There's something about the cool outdoor air intertwining with the chlorine-infested fumes that just make trusting the person you're in there with, inevitable. (By the way, do not use this newfound knowledge to take advantage of me) Anyway, my roommate and I have the best talks in there. But who are we kidding? We have the best talks anywhere. I also don't like announcing her as my "roommate", because it just doesn't do her any justice, at all. She's so much more than someone I simply share a room with. I NEED to change the subject before I get all sappy, (she's totally gonna read this, haha). But in conclusion: I love her, soooo very much, and a mere blog entry could never describe how much I care about her!

So, I went to the art gallery today. It was definitely a let down. I mean, usually I'm pretty open minded to art and all it's glory, but this was just terrible. Everything was either too abstract, too amateur, or disgusting (I'd rather not see what a corpse' bodily fluids look like when sprinkled upon glass.) I want REAL art. I want to go to Italy and see the gaze up at the Sistine Chapel, or spend countless hours at the Louvre in France. Yes, I'm officially adding that to my To-Do list.

So, these next two weeks are going to be INSANE. Last night, amidst its deep and dark hours, I calculated that I have total of 13 assignments to complete in 9 days. (!!!) It's not like I've been slacking off or anything, it's just that all six of my classes seem to prefer to give out alot of homework at the same time. At first after I figured out the cruel 13:9 assignment ratio, I just couldn't comprehend it; I was like, "oh! This is my cue to die." UNTIL, I realized that I don't just have 9 days, in fact, I have 10 nights. I have 9 whole days and 10 whole nights to complete these assignments. Who needs sleep when you can just stay up late doing homework and writing blog entries?? NOT ME. Last night was the first night of my homework binge. I stayed up until 3 AM, and I even made my roomie change my facebook password so that I have zero access to it until these 9 days and 10 nights are over. Quite the strategy I have going on here, eh? And as for tonight, I'm planning on staying up as late as I need to in order to get some homework done. I am strong. I am motivated. And I am also thankful for chai tea lattes. By the time May rolls around, I know I'm going to be sick as a dog; I'm not naive when it comes to the consequences of enforced-insomnia. I'm also going to be fat. "I just don't have time to work out!!!" says the one who just watched two episodes of Gilmore Girls. Oh well, I'm still eating my vegetables, and taking my vitamins. It's gonna be rough folks, but my GPA will thank me for it! (hopefully)

Anyway, it's already 12:30 AM, so I'd better get started on homework. Here are some photos from the weekend:

Highways.

I just finished watching "The Last Song", a movie based on the Nicholas Sparks' book. And of course I bawled my eyes out. Apparently I'm the biggest sap ever. I NEVER used to cry during movies at the theatre, because I couldn't cry in front of people, but now I just let it all out. When did I become so emotional?

Every Nicholas Sparks movie just gets me: a Walk to Remember, Dear John, The Notebook, and now this one, The Last Song. Wow...
And the thing is that I don't cry during the love scenes, or about the relationship between the guy and the girl. I cry about the father with autism, the death that cancer brings, or when the son cries out of arguing with his sister.

Nicholas Sparks is such an amazing writer. His stories are just so real. I'm definitely adding all of his books to my summer reading list. I can't wait 'till summer. Honestly, after a long day at work, all I'm gonna do is read and watch movies. I cannot wait. I'm so tired of homework these days. I now know why University semesters only last a total of four months. I don't know how anybody could possibly take any more stress than this!

The house I'm in right now sits on a hillside, with an incredible view of farmland and snow-capped mountains. What's also in sight is the Trans-Canada Highway. I like to stare mindlessly at it, at the cars gliding along while passing the ever-so-intimidating semi trucks beside them. I like the contrast of the approaching yellow headlights with the vanishing vivid red tail-lights. I realized just now why I like this highway so much. It's because I know that as long as I stay within the lines, that highway will take me home, eventually. It's sort of a revelation to me; to suddenly realize that what's connecting me to home is simply, a long and winding road. How could I possibly feel lost when all I need to do is head east?

My favorite picture I took at the amazing John Mayer concert:

Ideal.

I've always told myself that things would be better next week, or next month, or next year, or when I'm in my 20s, ect.

I'm very much an idealist. I've always been dreaming that one day I'm going to wake up and miraculously be the person I've always wanted to be: confident, smart, known, beautiful, knows how to laugh at herself, has lots of friends, always says the right thing...

But that's not how it works. I can't be the person I am today, and then expect me to be my ideal, flawless self tomorrow. When you want something you have to work at it. The moment you know you want something is the moment you know you need to take action towards it.

To tell you the truth, I'm kind of scared to look at the future, or walk out my door, because I know that it's only going to get harder from here.

But I think people are right when they say to take it one day at a time; don't worry about tomorrow, since tomorrow has enough worries of its own, or something of the sort.

So here is one of the most encouraging Bible verses:

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11

If God already has it all planned out, then why worry?

Tresses.

Remember a few days ago I wrote that I suddenly found myself buying protein bars at the bookstore? Well....

I found a new interest. It's not really new, it's just rekindled, one might say.

It all started a few weeks ago when I thought to myself, "Wow, I really really really want long hair."

And that was the day I officially decided that having hair down to my waist was in my future, and in stone.

After a few minutes had gone by, I thought to myself, "Wow, this is really taking a long time. I wonder if there's anything I can do to speed up the process..."

You should have seen me that night, googling "how to grow long hair" in as many different phrases and word-orders possible. I soon found out that exercise, plenty of sleep, treating your hair like a fragile piece of fine lace (quit with the steaming hot irons, people!) , and diet are key factors. (Nutrients from vegetables, and high amounts of protein)

And since then I've been hooked on eating healthy. I eat sooo many vegetables, it's not even funny. (Broccoli especially). And I eat alot of meat now, like grilled chicken for basic protein. (my parents will be so proud!!) For extra protein I now put Whey Protein in my daily Jugo Juices, which makes it taste even better than it did before, no joke! And this Jugo Juice concoction contains over 5 servings of fruit. How magical is that??

Oh and did I mention that taking my Women's One-A-Day, Vitamin C, and Silica tablets are the highlight of my day? Mmm... :)

Apparently the secret to hair growth, along with the secret to any other desired bodily function is simply, be healthy.

So in conclusion, my "new" interest lies near the basics of Nutrition. Maybe I should be a nutritionist. Haha...

Hooray for Protein bars!

Cappuccino.

I've been doing weird things lately. First of all, I draw crazy pictures in class like THIS:
(Thank you to Midsummer Night's Dream for inspiring me with your book cover)

(Can you find the little knight? He's my favorite.)

Then I spent the whole weekend doing absolutely nothing but writing my English research paper. (and watching My Best Friends' Wedding of course). And just when I think 2000 words is way too much to handle, I end up finishing the paper off with 2800 words.

And then last night I forced a cappuccino down my throat (it was like coffee --disgusting!) in hopes to stay up past 3 AM to do homework.

Oh and not to mention, this morning I bought a protein bar at the bookstore. Who does that?! I'll admit that it did taste pretty good though...

And best of all, I have huge motivation to do homework right now. It's good to have my determination back. I think I went a good three weeks without caring about anything. I wonder what that was all about.

Well, I'm off to do some much-needed studying! There's only a month of this torturous stress left, so I had better make the most of it.

P.s- Thursday will be a good day. I'm meeting up with my man, John Mayer in the $50 nosebleed seats. Can't wait!

Oh and here is a photo of my child:

Dear Jennifer:

You have a research paper due on Monday.
You've been working on it for almost two days already, and all you have done is the first measly page of the first rough draft.
If there's one thing I ask of you, it is this: STOP BEING SUCH A PERFECTIONIST AND JUST WRITE.
If only you could see how dumb you look while staring blankly at a computer screen.
All the best,
Jennifer

Two Things;

Two Nicknames You Go By 1. Jenny 2. Jennaaay (Forest Gump, anyone?) Two Parts of Your Heritage 1. Mennonite 2. Canadian Two Things That Scare You 1. Feeling worthless, like I have nothing to offer the world/Rejection. 2. Cutting my hair. Two of Your Everyday Essentials 1. My incredible iTunes playlist. 2. My day planner. Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now 1. Old jeans 2. A ring on my left-hand. (Ha just kidding, it's only the right hand) Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists (at the moment) 1. Lady Antebellum 2. Relient K Two Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love) 1. Laughter 2. Adventure/Spontaneity Two Truths 1. I have this weird desire to work for Focus on the Family one day, and reach out to teenage girls. I don't know, being a kid is hard, and I remember that alot of the things that got me through were from Focus on The Family like my Adventures in Odyssey story CDs, and the Christy Miller series. I want to help like I was helped. 2. I had my very first slow dance the other night. Twice actually.. Two Physical Things that Appeal to You About the Opposite Sex. 1. Nice teeth. 2. How often they smile or laugh. I could never be with a serious guy, never ever. Two of Your Favorite Hobbies 1. Listening to great music. 2. Dancing. (I am quite the rebellious mennonite) Two Things You Want Really Badly 1. A decent GPA. 2. For my hair to grow down to my waist. Two Places You Want to go on Vacation 1. Israel (2 more months!!) 2. All over Europe Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die 1. Write a book. (ahh that would be so great) 2. Fall in love. (ahh that would also be so great) Two Ways That You are Stereotyped 1. I have blonde hair, so apparently I'm really dumb. 2. I smile and laugh alot, so apparently I'm really ditzy. Like, come on people, be a little more creative with your degradation-skills. Two Things You Are Thinking About Now 1. Honestly, I suck at doing homework. It's like as soon as I came to the realization that there's only a month of school left, that it must be time to turn the brain off. Bad idea... 2. I wish I could've gone bungee jumping with the Outdoor Club this weekend, but instead I let my procrastination get the best of me. Ugh. Two Stores You Shop At 1. The University bookstore. (bahah nerd) 2. American Eagle. Two people you haven't talked to in a while 1. Him 2. Her Two favorite web sites 1. Facebook of course, it gives me all my favorite music artists' updates! 2. Blogger.com (I love blogs!) Two pets you had (have) 1. A million dogs. 2. A million cats. Two Favorite Sports 1. Soccer 2. Recreational Volleyball Two things you did last night 1. Went to a "Science of the Sexes" thing, pretty interesting. 2. Went on a McDonalds run before bedtime, and bought Deanna a birthday McFlurry! Two shows you like to watch 1. Friends 2. Gilmore Girls Two places you like to go "out" to 1. Earls/Moxies/Any classy joint. 2. The movie theatre of course!

P.s- I am just SO cool: